Per Suggestion II
I was in a conversation today that gave me a glimse of what I may be like in 10 years or so, I found that I didn’t like what I heard… it works but it seems too artifical to me… a bolted on personality over a core persona that I find appealing in its purity. Even though I was taken back by my overall negative reaction to what I heard, I hope that I can take the introspective pieces of what I heard and build an integrated personality that works for me and doesn’t give people, that have a similar thought process that I, have a bad feeling about who I am.
Maybe a shouldn’t say bad feeling… more of a feeling that I am not getting the true person… but a calculated image of who the person wants other to see. I believe in the core ideas of honesty and transparency… but not the methods that that person used to convey those ideals. Not that the situation was an ideal one to get the points of the persons ideals across… I still think that the methods pushed too hard… too much technique.
Now that was silly for me to say out in the open… but I did spend alot of time thinking about what I saw and heard and that is what I came up with. Maybe in a different setting I will see less of the technique and more of the person and their value system and maybe I can find a better method of applying some of the techniques that overall I think are useful.
Didn’t think I would write this much… and it is pretty much a free form spilling of some of the thoughts I have been having recently.
